For some reason I dont know what to do...
What to hate..
What to like..
How to move further..
I think it's all wrong that my social skill has become so much deteriorated..I dont even know how to make networking.I mean.. theorerically. I did know.. But in practical it was a failure I guessed. Tried hard to remember where is the mistake..but the problem is nowhere but within.. Im just not an extrovert.Im an inteovert..I dont know how to promote my product.I is so timid. I is lacking confidence cause my shyness ia beyond measure.gahhh...
I just hate myself today.. I feel bad for everybodihh esp my parent and my husband when I do nothing but wasting their money. NO! I is not happy. Feels like pps are looking down at me.... This sometimes very depressing. Ppl keep telling me to do this that this that. But I just cant.. I can hear them. but may be I need some pusher.or pressure.... that transfer those 'command' to actions.. But I have yet to find it.. Do I live tooo comfortably........ I keep asking myself why Im like this.... Thats why Im so strict w my doter..coz I just dont want her end up like her mother... I want her to fly further..and explore.and become someone big.. I mean. big in terms of contribution to society as a whole..am i too much....hmmm....
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